Friday, January 29, 2010

Hello Blog

"I have not posted here in a long time."

"Why?", you ask.

"Well there are many reasons. Initially, I started posting less because I was having too much fun. I was rarely home or alone. It was nice. That's a great reason not to blog."

"But if you're having so much fun, then why are you blogging right now?"

"Well, I haven't been having very much fun for a week. Apparently all those nice times wore me out. My chiropractor and acupuncturists all told me that my adrenal glands were drained and that I was exhausted. A Western doctor also told me she thought I was exhausted."

A smile starts forming on your lips. I know that smile. I hate that smile.

"Exhausted? You don't really do much of anything but watch TV, work, and kiss beautiful women. You can't be exhausted. And IF you're just exhausted, why wouldn't you start blogging more?"

"Yeah, I'm not sure how it happened either. There were definitely a few nights where a beautiful woman kept me from my usual 8 hours of sleep, but I don't think that's what wrong. I worked a lot of long, busy, stressful shifts that I think definitely contributed to it, and I did a fair amount of drinking which may have added to the problem. I've also been worried about my health which probably only makes things worse. I'm exhausted enough that when I walk to the store and back all I can think of doing is sleeping. Staying up too late causes my heart to race. The doctor said I was getting by on adrenaline which is really bad. She prescribed Trazodone to help me get more rest, which it does, but I don't feel like I'm getting any better."

"Oh, so it's kind of serious then? And you still didn't answer me about the more blogging thing."

"I don't know how serious it is. I'm going to continue with the acupuncture, Trazodone, and adrenal supplements the chiropractor gave me. I'm going to see some specialists next Friday if things don't get better by then. I've been blogging less because I got out of the habit. I guess I just don't care about it that much."

"Cool, well that answers all of my questions, I guess. I hope you start feeling better. I don't really read your blog that much anyway, so I don't really care if you blog, but I care why you don't blog. Does that make sense? I still think you should post some of those vinyl rips you did."

"Haha. I don't do this blog for you or anyone else. It's for me. I will try to get some albums posted soon. Thanks for talking!"

You didn't say goodbye. You smiled. I know that smile. I like that smile. And then you waved and walked away.